two gays. one startup. the roadmap to get there

lately, i’ve been in a limbo.

couldn’t quite put my finger on it…

but i was essentially feeling like i’m stepping into a new season without a lot of clarity on what that means or how it looks.

that something big was coming, but i had no idea what.

I was talking to a friend about it a few weeks ago, telling him that it always feels scary to be on the precipice of something that u can’t fully see, feel, or understand.

it kind of felt like my eyes were wide open
but I had a blindfold on.

so, no matter how big i made my eyes to try to take it in…
it was still just… darkness.

then, late one night, i couldn’t sleep.

i was tossing and turning… and then… it hit me.

the idea for the startup company.

i can’t say what it is just yet.

but i can say this: I am VERY excited.

and have a delusional level of self-belief in my ability to pull this off.

i have to.

it’s the only thing that has allowed me to do anything worth talking about in my life.

my delusional self-belief in my ability to build the relationship I have with my wife (who is out of my league).

my delusional self-belief in my ability to replace my nursing income with my own business (and then far exceed it).

my delusional self-belief to build a community of people that feel like home and inspire me to do cooler and cooler shit.

my delusional self-belief to sell our things and start traveling, trusting that we’ll create new paths wherever we go.

yeah, i still have imposter syndrome.

but there’s this other part of me that has what feels like the opposite of that.

where i believe i can do things that no one like me should be able to.

I mean… I’m a former nurse that is now wanting to start a software company…???

it shouldn’t work… but it will.

watch.

and the most thrilling part of all this to me is that my wife and i will likely be the first married lesbian couple to found an app startup company.

at least that’s what Claude’s said.

maybe AI isn’t up to date? idk…

**EDIT: we found an app started by two married lesbians.
so we won’t be the first!
But that’s actually SO DOPE!
we aren’t attached to being the first as much as to the idea of giving more representation in a field of tech bros lol

anyway…

we’re gonna do this in public.

let people into the process.

show ya the good, bad, and the ugly parts of founding a startup like this.

because anyone can show ya the really cool stuff that makes you go: “ugh! I want that!” when they’ve actually created the life, business, or relationship they worked really hard for.

but it’s a whole different ball game to see what it takes to create those things.

and i wanna show that stuff.

transparently.

honestly.

with a real, raw documentation of what goes into it along the way.

most people understand that building a biz ain’t easy.

but they don’t always see exactly what makes it so damn hard.

i hope to show that stuff.

not to deter anyone.

in fact,
just the opposite.

because the right people will see the hard stuff, and decide they are going to do it anyway.

so, here’s to building in public.

to showing the world what’s possible.
for women.
for queer folks.
for humans with a big dream.

let’s do this thing!

that’s today’s proof of life.

catch ya in the next one

- Micah